Just a little blog about crafting, owning a small business, friendships and life in general.
author - emily graham
((Written and posted on my old blog April 20, 2017))
My dream was to own a retail store. I had dreamed of being an entrepreneur of an adorable shop that sold trendy home decor and gifts. On our travels, I would go to little shops and be envious of the store owner. Sometimes I would criticize the store for what I now know was probably not overlooked by the owner. They just didn't have time to get to the dirty floors or broken merchandise. They were probably preoccupied with inventory, taxes, planning, marketing, and listening to customers 'suggestions'.
In November of 2015, my dream came true. I was the owner of an adorable store in the heart of a historic downtown area. Things couldn't have been better. By opening during the holidays really helped that first push. Business was great and the town was very supportive. People would ask why I opened a store in this town. I would reply, "why not?" I would ignore the negativity....at least for as long as I could. By late summer, things got really bad and my attitude had declined tremendously. I was ready to throw in the towel, but my husband wouldn't let me. He pushed me through my first anniversary. He told me I would regret not making it a full year. He was so right.
So here I am another six months into the wonderful world of retail and still want to leave. Retail and I just don't seem to fit. I enjoy being at home restoring our historic house, planning grocery trips and spending time with my husband and daughter. I read so many articles that tell you to do what makes you happy. As my birthday approaches (tomorrow) I feel the time slipping away. Only 2 more years until my youngest graduates high school. My oldest just got married and the wedding feels like a blur.
I want to enjoy life, not run through it.
I want to be happy and as each day passes, I realize retail does not satisfy my soul like I thought.
What does satisfy my soul is crafting. Creating something out of nothing is what makes me happy. Having projects and seeing them through to the end is what makes me happy. Even if those projects are simple. The fact that there was an idea, I put it to life and even if I throw it away, it brings me joy. Running around like a crazy woman trying to please complete strangers for the possibility of a profit does not make me happy.
So where to go from here? Liquidate and close the store entirely? Stay open just the two days a week and be forced to keep the store stocked, cleaned, insured, etc? I guess I will enjoy my birthday eve with a few drinks and think about what tomorrow will bring......
In 18 days, my baby will turn 18 years old, so I decided to do an advent birthday leading up to the big day. Her big present has already been revealed - a trip to Los Angeles in late August. But I felt she needed little gifts as well. I used pictures for each day that corresponds with each year (present 1 = 1st birthday, present 2 = 2nd birthday, etc). This is another great way to use tags in your crafting!